Two weeks can change everything.

This I learned in the short time that has elapsed since October 1st.
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It's just so funny to think of how radically different my life was two weeks ago. I had one place I called home, three people I called family. My problems were limited as well-- largely just annoying myself over grades with some qualms about homecoming.

Everything was so normal, so just plain high school; so much "OMIGOSH I HATE CHEMISTRY, ehh lol my friends are weird but I love them anyways <3, OH. MY. GOD. STOP BEING SO AWKWARD AND STOP FLIRTING WITH ME AND STOP TELLING EVERYONE YOU'RE GONNA ASK ME OUT AND JUST ASK ME OUT ALREADY., yay for practice oh crap i busted my running shoes again oh well at least this is fun!, OH MY GOD YOU'RE KIDDING ME IF YOU MEAN I HAVE TO WEAR THAT UGLY PIECE OF CRAP, is this teacher bipolar or something?, CRAPPPPPP i just started a rumor didn't i."

Yeah.
Normal, stupid, teenager things.

I was only sort-of happy, only sort-of there.

It's really funny, because it's been 13 days since I wrote that crazy emo rant about how life just sucks, and right now everything's so changed. I've got two houses I call home now. I've been through conditioning and practice while ill and victim to sleeplessness. I ended a lot of the drama via a lot of actions that I shouldn't have really taken, but didn't have a choice about. I've made a lot of choices between a rock and a hard place, between a frying pan and a fire. I watched my brother lose everything in a matter of days and been unable to do a thing.

Sometimes I'd sleep, sometimes not for days.
It's like the people I meet always go their separate ways.
Sometimes you tell the day by the bottle that you drink
and times you're all alone, and all you do is think.
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I also got my best friend back, and added a new one to the mix.
And I also learned that my friends are a lot closer and a lot more amazing than I'd ever expected them to be.

I learned how to push yourself through moments that everything's going wrong and nothing is working out.

I learned how to win a debate when your voice is giving out and you're sore and sick and barely even understand the issue at hand.

I learned how to sprint in 100 degree weather after the aforementioned debate while having neither eaten nor slept.

I learned that some things are inevitable.

And that everything, everything, EVERYTHING always works out in the end.

I learned that sometimes, rumors are just rumors.

I also learned how to start one (;

I learned that at the end of the day, you can survive so much more than you think you can.

I also learned that one person can't do everything.

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In two weeks, everything has changed.

And you know what?

My whole life is upside-down now.

And I haven't been this happy in a long time.

Because now, I can appreciate everything that I DO have,

and my truly amazing friends.


So thank you guys for everything.

Yall rock (:

And anyway, I'm glad most of this is over and done with.
(:

How's life, everyone?